age
Friday, March 27th, 2009I am at a conference with three students, all about half my age, or, well, thirty years younger than I am. Even as I write that, I think: Could this be possible? I’m old enough to be their mother? In some circles, their grandmother? Oh my. I don’t think of myself as middle-aged. I don’t walk around thinking: yep, I’m fifty, how about that, halfway to dead already. I do walk around thinking, I feel pretty good. I feel energetic — mostly — smart (sort of) — and if I do the Tyra Banks walk? Well, yes indeed I can still turn heads. Never mind that the heads belong to other 50 somethings. Just never mind that.
But this week? I feel old. My students have a lot more energy than I do. Granted, their energy peaks about 9 pm when mine is going into jammy mode. And in the morning, they are sleepyheads while I’m ready to run around and do things. But they seem to have an ability to get by on less sleep, intermittent food (and lots of it), combined with constant motion and activity and conversation.
About now, I’m ready for a day of nothing but a couple of books, silence, some good coffee, and sheer quiet. And, I must admit, a diet. When you’re fifty, don’t try to eat like twenty-somethings. You’ll wear the meals for a long time.